Longing for YOU

Here i stand within Your presence,
longing for Your touch,
a thousand days cannot compare to one day in Your courts.

Hold me now and never ever let me go,
My JESUS, my precious savior,
I am forever yours.

In a state of hunger and thirst for Him.

tired.

I am tired. God..please grab me tight.

New year =D

HAPPIIEEEEEE 2009!!!! hehee...

I'm sorry that i didtn blog before coming back here to labuan again.. hehee... i slept quite earlier on new yeat eve.. ahaha.. the first time i slept before it's 1 2 . ANyway..my new year day started off with a church service n a fellowship party.. it was great.. =D nothing much happens after that besides doing pile of homework... =( ..SOBSss... We dont really feel that it's new year day.. everything is just dull as usual in our college... hehee.. Well well.. as mid sem exam is coming up.. (12-13 jan 2009) everyone gts pretty panicked... So tat's why.. you hardly see people having fun likke what the norm shud be.. laughss...

Well.. nothing much comes to me this new year... my goal? I seriously dont know...a few things that i prayed that i can achieve this year wud be:
1. a closer relationship with our God.
2. a closer relationship with my family
3. get 4 flat in my final (if that's what God has in mind)
4. get the course i wan in the uni i wan. (by God's grace)
5. be joyful!!!! (which is really hard at times)
6. (private)

Hahahaaa... well.. these 5 are the main things i guess.. Well.. lastly..i would like to wish all of u happie new year n have a blessed year!! stay close to God n may God bless u all in eveyrthing this new year!!!!!!! EMMANUEL~

Bro's wedding~

It has been a while since i last updated.. i'm stil alive n fine!!!! hehehehee... =D 2008 is going to end soon.. Ii'm coming back home for christmas break now. It's the same old home, but tis holiday was special. Yes. it is. The whole family was inside this house.. the scene i've missed so much since bros left home. it'd been a while..........since the 5 of us cud sit together under one roof.....tis time it's even more special as one new member joined us under this roof.. =D n tat's none other than my sis in law, Lee Ling! =D Well, my eldest bro finally get married already on 19th December 2008!!! A day i've waited for so long.. hehee.. i was soo excited! i shall post a few photos here...

sorry.. not in the right order.. my cousin, Val n i

well.. obviously it's me.. ahha

ahem ahem.. bahagianya..

auntie n uncle with their 3 cute kids!

Cousins

my best frens!!!!!!

with pastors, Bi ho and mom & Gabriel n mom

Family..

bro's art teacher presenting his oil painting of da sao n bro..

My little cute cous n i..

My second bro n I

Hahaa.. tat's my dad!

WHOLE FAMILY

Auntie Uncle n their 3 kids!!

Cousins n I

Yiyi, bro n I

Pastor Lisa n I

The candle..

Congratulations to my bro n sis in law!!! yippepeeeeee... Weelll..This is all about the wedding.. i know i know, i should write more!!!! i guess i'll do it next time.. heehehee...=d

People.. We seriously need God in everything.. from little things to big things.. He makes everything beautiful.. i trust that more than anything.. =D n i still trust it today...

I really wanna thank God for bro's wedding..for making all these happened.. thank my parents for everythin they have done for the preparation.. n deep down in my heart i pray for bro n sis in law's happiness.. =D Please have the best marriage under God's blessings.. Always stay close to God!!...

Well.. if there's a chance.. i'll tell u more about wat happen in the past few months!! hahaa.. sorry...

Hard times?

I was pondering…

Life is not all about smooth sailing.. nor all about suffering.. There’re times when you get really desperate and just cry out to God, telling Him how much you need Him..and how weak you are…

Is pain always a punishment? No.. for example, was God disciplining Job when Job suffered? Nope. God had already held up Job as a model of goodness as He told Satan that no one on earth is as blameless as Job…so why should God discipline a blameless person? Well..a person’s trial may, in fact, be used to win a great spiritual victory. Like how Job has trusted God in his darkest days when Satan insisted that he would curse God.. Maybe this is how people around you can see the strength God put in you and how God can help u make it through when you trust if we are like Job. So shall we give up and mourn all the time we face trials? Or shall we stay strong by the strength from God n rejoice? It’s hard.. it is…..

Pain always come with a purpose. Look at the pain Israel gone thru in the book of Isaiah, but God makes clear that this pain was not arbitrary and purposeless. Like childbirth, it’ll lead to sth happy and good. God also reaffirms that the suffering of Israelites will one day lead to a great missionary among all humanity. Think about the pain we’re bearing right now.. I believe there’s a purpose there.. you might not find it now.. but soon… you’ll understand why…many times I do not understand why things happened but each time I looked back.. I know that they bear different fruits.. patience..love…and many many others..

I always believe that sufferings, pains and afflictions are meant to make us strong. They happen as to mould us into an instrument that God can use for His purposes. I guess we all agree that these afflictions make us grow.. don’t they? It’s just that they are painful.. so we must learn to rejoice and ask God.. wad r the things He want us to learn from each of them.. instead of getting depressed. But often, we’ll just give in to depression and let emotions take over us fully. It’s difficult but by faith, I believe we all can do it!!! =D

Perseverance is what I need to have. -Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who loved Him.- James 1:12 This verse always encourage me the most. =D as God promised me a crown of life! So people.. Persevere but do not let Satan defeats you!

So now, we should be joyful though life’s difficult, hard..painful..as Romans 5:3 said that….but we also rejoice in our sufferings,, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us. Pray for Holy spirit the comforter to comfort us when our heart breaks..

For whatever pain I’m feeling right at this moment, I know that it’s all for good..as Romans 8:28 says that..And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whoever been called according to his purpose.

Stay strong as God will be with us…Be honest with God and tell God today your innermost feelings, God knows you best..He truly understands.. Go to Him and rest in Him… Only Him can give you the comfort that ease you heart..

I’m happy that I have Him. =D

too lazy to update...

I've sooo much to say... to tell.. to update.. but i'm just too lazy.... >.< aarrrgghhhh... I'll try harder next time.. hahaaa..

The land of Kampuaaa... HERE I COME!!!!

Well.. though i have lotsa time.. but i'll try to make it short.. ahahaa...

9th of August..

Early morning.. Mel pulled me up.. hahaa.. to get ready for our early flight..=D mine was 0810..some came with me.. some were stil sleeping soundly as their flights werent that early..

My heart was shouting for joy when the airport stood rite in front of me.. Laughss.. I'd been waiting for this moment to come the day since i landed Labuan.. ahahaa.. happily we checked in, got our boarding pass and waited for the time to FLY!!! poor ah guang gt taxed for his 4L wine.. hhaaa..RM10 was pretty worthwhile though.. ahhaa..

I got 3 bulky hand luggages.. and lucky me got the first row seat and there was no place to place all my luggages.. Thank God for sending me great and handsome steward =P.. hahaa... Once i sat down on my seat.. i started to dozed off (as usual) even before the flight took off..I was drooling already when suddenly everyone were standing up and heading the doorway.. I was shocked.. I actually thought that i arrived Miri already but was kinda doubtful as well.. I asked others and found out something was wrong with the plane and we had to get down...I was blurred that time.. took everything and left..

Later.. we're given free nasi goreng and mineral water from MAS to compensate for our inconvenience.. Waiting and waiting somemore... one hour passed.. two hours passed... i started to get worried as my connecting flight from Miri to Sibu was 1320.. i must go back that day as Phebe was waiting for me!! we all prayed real hard.. i tried to ask them to squeeze me in 1210 flight but it was too full.. i started to get anxious but still trustin that God will make things right.. Soon.. friends using 1210 flight were coming and they laughed at us puas puas.. hahaa.. we were really desperate and restless.. haaa.. FINALLY at 1130am.. an annnouncement gave us all the hope!! we ran all the way to the plane..!!! hehee..

1320 i arrived Sibu.. but i didnt see anyone i noe..mom, dad. phe and joyce.. none of them were there.. i called and just knowing that they haven arrive.. hahaaa..Later.. i saw my car coming!!!!

taken by phe.. hahahaa.. i noe.,. i look fat.. cos the truth is i grew fat!! hahaa...n i was very 狼狈 already.. hahaa...

I finally met Phebe n Joyce... i was feeling sooooo happieee... God.. Thank U soo much.. i couldnt believe it u noe?? i was like in my dream.. !!!i couldnt express my feeling.. i was ssoooooo touchedddd... FINALLY!!!! God reli providessss....

Haaaa... went to sushi tie right away!!! =P

baby octopus.. to mic's mouth!!! =p

Later.. went to church as phebe's playing piano for sunday's service.. they were having a practice.. it was great to be back to church.. sitting beside phebe, listening to her singing and playing the piano.. i stil couldnt believe that all that were true.. i really missed it soooo much... the days when you played in youth worship service.. the day when u sang beside my ears... i missed them soooo much!!!!!!!! PHEBE.. you're finally back!!!

Arrived home later... Mom showed me the shoes, sandals and things she bought for me... hahahaa... *touched* they all look soo cute.. hahahaa.. mom and dad were as caring as usual.. awww... i missed my home... hahaa.. some changes were made... it's sooo great to be home.........