By His grace

I challenged my soul and emotions, didnt I? By His grace, I think I did it. =) It's all good. 


But it was uncomfortable in some senses. :( WWJD

It's so windy!

Another windy day! Let me check, the forecast says it's blowing at 39mph!!! You could barely move when it's blowing from the opposite direction of where you are going. And, your hair just go everywhere, even your bag cant stay on your shoulder properly! You just move forward or backwards from all directions! Trust me! You could feel that your phone might get blown if you don't grip it tight. SCARY! And if you happen to be carrying a plastic bag, it'll be going everywhere! And I was carrying notes and the paper, basically hugging them! And I think it's funny how you could stand at one point, having bright sunshine above your head that minute and the next, it's covered by the clouds! :) You can actually get it indoor! 

And I was bored enough to actually document it. XD

Look at the treees! And listen to the sound of the wind, it's fierce! And, the clouds!(I wasnt moving at all) And, in this, if you see properly, you could see what I meant about the sunshine, being there and gone next sec. (not very good in this one, don't know why I cant upload another vid) And I was holding my cam with both hands, it moved so much!

Pay attention to the fast-moving clouds above the static houses! I have never seen such scene in Malaysia. And, I think I enjoy looking at them, provided that I am staying indoor! :D

If it is one of your windy days (lots of ups and down) in life, don't worry. You will still get the sunshine (hope!) as the clouds (problems) get blown away (The clouds listen to Him XD) Reminds me of faith!

Emotions.

Emotions, can be so demanding in a sense that they want all your attention! I woke up feeeelinggg soooo lousy! Partly it was because I had a long night at work, so I was physically tired. And, I had a dream, so vivid that it brought back memories that have already faded. Then, I started feeling nostalgic. And then, the glooomy sky made me feeeel gloooomy as well (now, I'm blaming on the weather! XD) Or should I blame the hormones instead? (Esp girls?) And loneliness.. makes it worse. yikes.

I have a chemistry exam next week. So, I NEED to study, but I seriously couldn't focus. I was thinking about a lot of stuffs, except Chemistry! XD 

I felt so lousy that I found myself chopping carrots, onions, garlic & etc for dinner. (I think it was only 1pm) Taking my sweet time, I really did enjoy preparing for cooking. I think I just found myself a new way to satisfy the emotions, putting them at rest. :) (Trying not to give in to this funny thing, called emotion)

Was thankful that all the ingredients for pasta are so cheap here, compared to Malaysia. :)

I baked pasta! :) Housemates think it was not bad at all! :)

And, honey roasted parsnips. Housemates don't really like parsnips. =/ But I think those I had at bro's still taste better though. :(

I definitely enjoyed cooking and there'd be nothing else in your brain, except trying the best to cook nice food. :) Emotions plainly have no way to attack your soul that time! 

Housemate found this at a grocery shop! =D I like it! It is Sweet and Hot! (I said sweet first, cos you taste the sweetness first before your taste buds get the spiciness.

It's never easy when emotions start to get hold of you. But, I believe, it's still a battle to win! I find talking to Him the best way still, but so many times, we just tend to forget about this and think that other things are able to satisfy this demanding soul, and end up feeling worse and worse at the end of the day after trying so hard yet unsettled. Isn't it?

This reminds me of a phrase;

If you can't sleep, don't count sheep, talk to the shephard. :)

Brilliant weekend in WHITBY!

And so, no more classes for this week after the last presentation for the semester on thursday. I decided to visit my bro, Charles and his girlfriend, Swee Yen in darlington. To be honest, it was plainly because my lappie got hacked (dont ask XD) and so I need my bro to reformat it and of course, I do want to see them! We havent been meeting up due to my exams and buzzinesssss. 

Had great times after the presentation in newcastle with the mates for good food (DIM SUM! =)) And then they sent me off at the train station. I enjoyed the ride to bro's place as I listened to the songs in my shuffle when the train passed by the durham cathedral with the sun setting. Good, quiet time just pondering on life. I do appreciate solitude once in a while, the freedom and just the quietness it brings. (which soon dozed me off XD) Luckily, this girl beside me got down at darlington also, if not I might have missed the station. haha. 

Good food at  brother's! (He cooks!) It was a great evening chatting and laughing. Ah, quality fellowship I LOVE! 


The next day we visited Whitby!! Aaa.. It was 1.5 hrs drive away from darlington. it was foggy n we could hardly see much of the scenery. So much of the good view. XD And finally, we were there!

! I remember the last time we went to the beach was midnight when larry came to visit! Crazy moments with thousands of seagulls lining up on the beach, sleeping! (AMAZING!) Ah, I love the sea, the blue sky. The breeze. The smell of the sea! We were all so excited!! The weather was superb later(thought it would be foggy), totally thankful for it!

The steam passenger bus! (spot the steam) It's called "Elizabeth"!

And we had the legendary fish and chips at The Magpie Cafe, was rated as the best in the Britain! I had haddock and chips. Gorgeous, fresh fishy!!!

Then, we climbed up the 199 steps to the cliff to visit the St. Mary Parish Church with the grave yard and the ruins of Whitby Abbey. The steps wasnt as bad as we thought. 

Apparently, this is where the author of Dracula, Bram Stoker got inspired. The church yard and the ruins of the abbey. And so, Whitby has this gothic weekened event every year and it was it when we were there! Lots of people dressing up in the town!

 "But, strangest of all, the very instant the shore was touched, an immense dog  sprang up on deck from below ... and running forward, jumped from the bow on to the sand. Making straight for the steep cliff, where the churchyard hangs over the laneway to the East Pier ... it disappeared in the darkness."

from Dracula by Bram Stoker, 1897

There was a goth there!

The sun and the clouds with rays of light shining upon the cross!! And the whole town is under your feet.

The Whitby Abbey! Personally, I love this part of the trip the most. It wasnt all about the mighty and great abbey. It was plainly about being at the top of the cliff, getting the whole view of the town, the sea, the greens. I was awed by the scenery, His work of creation. It was beautiful, plainly indescribable. I felt rested. I talked to Him. I was just simply appreciating everything I could see, feel and taste at that very moment. And fresh air! :) especially after stressful times in uni.

Then, we went for tea! The whole trip wouldn't be as wonderful if there weren't lovely peoples around! :) Good fellowship of laughters and joy!!! And of course, the cakes! XD

And lastly, the lighthouse! 

I am sure I am coming back to this place next time I am definitely taking the steam train. (We hesitated cos it was bit pricey!) 

All in all, WE HAD AN AWESOME DAY! :) Totally thankful for it! But, we were all knackered at the end of the day. Haha. I remembered this song from childhood in the midst of my excitement earlier of the day.

"Hung Ngang" XD

A quick, satisfying brunch =)

Dispensing Exam

Trust me, I am so tired now, mentally and physically. An exam never failed torturing me! I wonder why! But by His grace, I would say I do get better (less panicked) as compared to last time. Ahh well.. I am proud that I did not take beta-blocker, propranolol (something that slows your heartbeat) this time. But still, i tried something homeopathic. (for calming effects)

Some sort of flower remedies it is, well, I would say it does help. But, I really cant be sure if it was just placebo effects. Haha. I got it just because the price went down, to be honest. Ah wells, try it!

So,  two days before my dispensing exam, I was talking to my housemate over the breakfast (just an usual breakfast) Had the day planned earlier on with stacks of prescriptions to study, but who knew, I started throwing out (everything!) and soon fainting before I even finished off 10 prescriptions. I could not stand properly and started fainting and fell down in the toilet. Thank God I got my housemate before I passed out!! They tried to massage me (suspecting a heat stroke) but nothing got better. Took two paracetamol (panadol) and it did not get any better. We were thinking if I had to visit the hospital again but I prayed really hard and told them I should try to sleep and see what happened. I sleeeeeept (waking in the middle feeling giddy still) and sleeeept until 5pm! Woke up feeeeling really weak, and the thought of having dispensing exam on monday really freaked me out. What ifs..

Found myself totally helpless in bed, gazing into the air. I prayed, really hard. I remembered I was desperate, telling Him, okay, I got to be fit for this important exam, I shall recover fast and be prepared, nothing should come anymore XD I was discouraged that time. and hahas, guess what, you wouldnt know if I nearly fainted if you saw me the next day in church. :) |He was FAITHFUL! My housemate nearly forgot about me fainting the day before.

But, my heart which never pumped faster than other people during normal times started being naughty again the night before exam. I could not sleeep!!! Sleeeeplesss.. And I sleept the morning away. (with endless nightmares) I was feeeeling really lousy physically. Prayer, I was praying so hard again for this exam. And PTL I made it through!!!!!...We were all soooo nervous. Three hours of exam which decide our summer holiday or worst, if we are repeating second year.

I nearly passed up a prescription which was outdated (sorry, too pharmacy-ish XD). I spotted the date last minute! Ah, God must had knocked my head on that. Hahas. And oh ya, I was really thankful! I got the number 28 (CL, I thought of your birthday! LOL) and the seat was next to everything I needed to get. Syringes, bottles, boxes and even the items on my prescriptions. Ah, God was good to me.  BUT, I got semething messed up, but I hope it is not bad enough to fail the exam. I was so shaky after knowing it after the exam. And a friend, with a simple phrase, "Leave the rest to Him!" stopped me from worrying. :) So true, where's my faith? It's all in His hands now. 

Saw some really sad, helpless faces for those who couldnt finish in time. I felt for them. sighs. I wouldnt say this exam is fair. Some people get easy items on their prescription, while some have to measure 7 bottles of drugs (super time-consuming). Ahh.. :( sobs. I hope they are okay.

That day being in bed whole day was helpless, weak moments. I came to find myself so weak and small. And how big He is that there is no way I could depend on myself. Once again, I was reminded of His faithfulness and being submissive.

One exam down, a presentation due thursday and another exam in two weeks time and here comes holiday!!!! :) Ah, I cant wait. It's been a crazy semester. Time just flew!

Food & Fellowship!

Had dinner over at one of the church members' place last night. :) Happy times with great food!

Dark Choc-ish Log.. Yummy!! I love it cos it wasn't too sweet!

Sushi :)

Doreen cooking the the creamy sauce.

Grilled chicken with sweet potato! So yummy!

Lasagne :)

Jeanne :)

Meringue Fruit Pavlova! Niceee... Should try baking this!

Hui Ping serving

Joyce with the cake

We want more but we were tooo full!

They practise before everyone comes.. and Hui Ping scored the most last night!

Haha..trying real hard to aim eh?

Fuiyoh!

Davin's turn

She recorded our scores!

And Joyce and I baked a really quick pasta for brunch this morning.

One of the eggy is imperfect XD it was yummy :) We were happy and satisfied!!

:) done in less than 30 mins!

I cant focus for my dispensing exam preparation. This is no good! XD
And.. I sorted out my dublin tickets! Flying over the ocean to meet CL and Larry! :) Looking forward! Oh and I had to get a prepaid mastercard to escape being charged for admin fee for ryan air! (Thanks CL for the tips! XD)

[Seek Me as if you were desperate all the time and then you won't find yourself desperate as often in reality.]

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