Hard times?

I was pondering…

Life is not all about smooth sailing.. nor all about suffering.. There’re times when you get really desperate and just cry out to God, telling Him how much you need Him..and how weak you are…

Is pain always a punishment? No.. for example, was God disciplining Job when Job suffered? Nope. God had already held up Job as a model of goodness as He told Satan that no one on earth is as blameless as Job…so why should God discipline a blameless person? Well..a person’s trial may, in fact, be used to win a great spiritual victory. Like how Job has trusted God in his darkest days when Satan insisted that he would curse God.. Maybe this is how people around you can see the strength God put in you and how God can help u make it through when you trust if we are like Job. So shall we give up and mourn all the time we face trials? Or shall we stay strong by the strength from God n rejoice? It’s hard.. it is…..

Pain always come with a purpose. Look at the pain Israel gone thru in the book of Isaiah, but God makes clear that this pain was not arbitrary and purposeless. Like childbirth, it’ll lead to sth happy and good. God also reaffirms that the suffering of Israelites will one day lead to a great missionary among all humanity. Think about the pain we’re bearing right now.. I believe there’s a purpose there.. you might not find it now.. but soon… you’ll understand why…many times I do not understand why things happened but each time I looked back.. I know that they bear different fruits.. patience..love…and many many others..

I always believe that sufferings, pains and afflictions are meant to make us strong. They happen as to mould us into an instrument that God can use for His purposes. I guess we all agree that these afflictions make us grow.. don’t they? It’s just that they are painful.. so we must learn to rejoice and ask God.. wad r the things He want us to learn from each of them.. instead of getting depressed. But often, we’ll just give in to depression and let emotions take over us fully. It’s difficult but by faith, I believe we all can do it!!! =D

Perseverance is what I need to have. -Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who loved Him.- James 1:12 This verse always encourage me the most. =D as God promised me a crown of life! So people.. Persevere but do not let Satan defeats you!

So now, we should be joyful though life’s difficult, hard..painful..as Romans 5:3 said that….but we also rejoice in our sufferings,, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us. Pray for Holy spirit the comforter to comfort us when our heart breaks..

For whatever pain I’m feeling right at this moment, I know that it’s all for good..as Romans 8:28 says that..And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whoever been called according to his purpose.

Stay strong as God will be with us…Be honest with God and tell God today your innermost feelings, God knows you best..He truly understands.. Go to Him and rest in Him… Only Him can give you the comfort that ease you heart..

I’m happy that I have Him. =D

too lazy to update...

I've sooo much to say... to tell.. to update.. but i'm just too lazy.... >.< aarrrgghhhh... I'll try harder next time.. hahaaa..

The land of Kampuaaa... HERE I COME!!!!

Well.. though i have lotsa time.. but i'll try to make it short.. ahahaa...

9th of August..

Early morning.. Mel pulled me up.. hahaa.. to get ready for our early flight..=D mine was 0810..some came with me.. some were stil sleeping soundly as their flights werent that early..

My heart was shouting for joy when the airport stood rite in front of me.. Laughss.. I'd been waiting for this moment to come the day since i landed Labuan.. ahahaa.. happily we checked in, got our boarding pass and waited for the time to FLY!!! poor ah guang gt taxed for his 4L wine.. hhaaa..RM10 was pretty worthwhile though.. ahhaa..

I got 3 bulky hand luggages.. and lucky me got the first row seat and there was no place to place all my luggages.. Thank God for sending me great and handsome steward =P.. hahaa... Once i sat down on my seat.. i started to dozed off (as usual) even before the flight took off..I was drooling already when suddenly everyone were standing up and heading the doorway.. I was shocked.. I actually thought that i arrived Miri already but was kinda doubtful as well.. I asked others and found out something was wrong with the plane and we had to get down...I was blurred that time.. took everything and left..

Later.. we're given free nasi goreng and mineral water from MAS to compensate for our inconvenience.. Waiting and waiting somemore... one hour passed.. two hours passed... i started to get worried as my connecting flight from Miri to Sibu was 1320.. i must go back that day as Phebe was waiting for me!! we all prayed real hard.. i tried to ask them to squeeze me in 1210 flight but it was too full.. i started to get anxious but still trustin that God will make things right.. Soon.. friends using 1210 flight were coming and they laughed at us puas puas.. hahaa.. we were really desperate and restless.. haaa.. FINALLY at 1130am.. an annnouncement gave us all the hope!! we ran all the way to the plane..!!! hehee..

1320 i arrived Sibu.. but i didnt see anyone i noe..mom, dad. phe and joyce.. none of them were there.. i called and just knowing that they haven arrive.. hahaaa..Later.. i saw my car coming!!!!

taken by phe.. hahahaa.. i noe.,. i look fat.. cos the truth is i grew fat!! hahaa...n i was very 狼狈 already.. hahaa...

I finally met Phebe n Joyce... i was feeling sooooo happieee... God.. Thank U soo much.. i couldnt believe it u noe?? i was like in my dream.. !!!i couldnt express my feeling.. i was ssoooooo touchedddd... FINALLY!!!! God reli providessss....

Haaaa... went to sushi tie right away!!! =P

baby octopus.. to mic's mouth!!! =p

Later.. went to church as phebe's playing piano for sunday's service.. they were having a practice.. it was great to be back to church.. sitting beside phebe, listening to her singing and playing the piano.. i stil couldnt believe that all that were true.. i really missed it soooo much... the days when you played in youth worship service.. the day when u sang beside my ears... i missed them soooo much!!!!!!!! PHEBE.. you're finally back!!!

Arrived home later... Mom showed me the shoes, sandals and things she bought for me... hahahaa... *touched* they all look soo cute.. hahahaa.. mom and dad were as caring as usual.. awww... i missed my home... hahaa.. some changes were made... it's sooo great to be home.........

The smell of holiday..... :p

8th of August..

Finally.. it's here.. I could finally go back to sibu!!after classes till 1130am... mid term break officially started.. we packed our stuffs n left KML!!! [thanks to Dee2 and Ain for helping me to "pull" down my huge luggage down 4 floors] We all squeezed into the church's van n left for church.. [we're staying there tat nite]

tat noon..we went around shopping for all kinds of chocolates and alcoholic beverages.. everyone spent sooooo muuuucccchhh on them.. hahaa.. as if they are free..we bought baskets of them.. haha.. hundreds are spent..now we noe wher's da place tat sell cheap ones.. we're lik ah sim surveying for prices, bargaining with the tauke.. laughss.. had lotsa fun tho..but real tired....went to the ferry terminal.. n it's nice!! =D had kfc for our dinner...

tat nite.. 080808...aahahhaaaa... the whole world's waiting for the arrival of 8pm.. hahaaa.. we all gathered at a church's uncle house to watch OLYMPIC's opening ceremony!! heheee... Stil searching the channel.. hahaa.. everyone's soooo excited!!

It was cool!!! but.. i stil cant tolerate the "huang mei diao" thingy.. haahaa.. =X everyone's cheering upon the unique performance and really grand opening.. =D I was kinda impressed with China..hahaa.. didnt expect it to be that special.. hahaa.. thanks to aunty for a great meal also.. hehee..We're all squeezed in a van that nite on our way back to church.. singing songs from streams of praise.. awww.. it's just like a group of kids in a van heading sumwher beautiful..perfect...n live happily ever after...the sky were full of starss... heart was singing for joy and peace that came from the holy spirit... awww.. hahahaa.. well.. i was imagining again.. =X

Back to reality..spent time sharing with pastor about my spiritual life in Labuan and the areas i'm serving in.. It was great to tell pastor my piece of mind.. I'm praying for our fellowship to grow spiritually in this whole year in Labuan.. I see so many people seeking God over there..I'm great to see more and more non-christian friends coming to church.. i realised that KML is a big harvest field.. am i really ready for it? :D pray more for me..

After that...packed chocolates till 1 sth and had beer with ah ma n mel.. hahaa..we couldnt sleep that nite.. probably tooo excited about going back? hahaa.. [we're all sleeping on the floor with ultra thin mattress] ah ma n i squeezed in one.. LOL.. ;later, ah ma felt cold and couldnt sleep well.. tossing and turning.. poor thing.. i was sleeping lik a pig.. =X

i'm getting long=winded here.. writing sth unimportant.. hahaa.. just feel like writing after all this while.. =D

awwww.....................

[beloved gor gor n da sao]

My eldest bro and his fiancee

They looooooook sooooooooo cccccuuuutttteeeeeeee!!!

Getting married soon~

19th December 2008

n i'll be the bridesmaid!! XD

hiak hiak hiak..

n i'm back in sibu!!!! yay!!!

SSSssooooOOooo HAaaaappppiiieeeee

will upload more photos..

n will update the blog ssssooooonnnnnnnnn!!!!!

=D