*Pondering*

Well... I was pondering on the things happened lately.. giving thanks to our mighty God.. and the list was long!!!!

1. The tour which mom is supposed to lead postponed from 23rd to 26th May.. That gives mom the chance to help me out with all the packings and preprations. Perfect Timing.
2. Dad's transferred back to SIbu office after being trasferred to Sarikei office for THREE months! it's a broken record! laughs. I would say it's a blessing in disguise as dad gets to come back because of his operation in Feb. (removal of gall bladder) God did not stop here. He went further to bless us.. dad's reporting to Sibu office on monday (exactly the day i'm going to report at matric college) I leave home and dad comes home! This way.. mom has someone to accompany her! PERFECT TIMING AGAIN!aww..It's an answered prayer!
3. Dad started going to church!!!!!!! Joy that words cannot describe..Praise GOD!
4. i got the perguruan interview.. which brought Sam here also.. (same time same venue) and we're given the chance to write on our mission trip experience!! So cool!! It's like God arranged everything. Stms-ians(Sam, me, tim, ezra, xia wei, mic) also get to see each other again! YAY!!
5. Bintulu trip wif MAF. I was there last weekend. Upon arrival, Lily (one of the stms-ian who's in Kedah studying) sudddenly smsed me and said that she's coming back to Sarawak. I was SO SHOCKED! we screamed.. because.. what a perfect timing! We get to meet up with each other (Sam and niu niu too)!! so unexpected! Cool, isn't it?
6. Me not getting JPA scholarship. It makes me stronger! :D Learning a lot from this phase of life that i'm going through.. :D To have faith and trusting fully that it's God's will.. n learn to rejoice! Qoute* Afflictions are meant to make us strong!
7. Getting Matric! :D ..having the chance to get emo.. and grow up!
8. Phebe just told me that they are planning to go Sabah. So there's a high chance of us hanging out together!! YAY!! see? God provides..
9. My family. Who had been there.. encouraging me and helping me to figure out which path to make.. Also, more time for me to spend with my family..
10. My bunch of wonderful friends who really show their love and care throughout these few months which seemed to be real draggy.. full of endless waitings and decisions to make..Thanks for all the prayers and encouragement!

God's grace is just too abundant for me to list them all down. (plus this post is getting too long again..haha..) :D I'll learn to continue to be joyful always; pray continually; and give thanks in all circumstances. Because our GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!!!.. even in bad times.. :D

Time to go..byes..

Finally.. i finish packing already!! So many things to pack!! Shopped like crazy for the last two days.. and it's really tiring!.. (Thank You Mom and Dad for running around shopping for my stuffs too!!) haha...i stuffed everything into the luggage till it's obese now.. XD..laughss..and it's so heavy!!! (wondering how i am going to pull that up the stairs.. hahaa)

Am i ready to go now?

Hehe.. i don't know.. haha.. the last day to be here in Sibu.. i feel weird.. haha.. it's like..it doesnt seem real.. stil cannot believe that i'm heading Labuan so fast..my flight from sibu to miri tomorrow will be at 4:45pm..(it's past midnight.. so it's today!.. XD) then i'll be staying in Kingwood INN, Miri tomorrow night with Kuei Feng and Vivien..Ee Heng and Dennis are going with us too..hehe.. Then we'll have to catch another flight on monday EARLY morning, 7++ am to Labuan.. and report :D I pray that everything goes smooth.. :D

Hmm...I'm sorry for those who didnt get matric.. *pats* but i believe that God has a better plan for you all! Please continue to trust that He'll provide and make your path straight! ok? You might not be able to see it yet now.. don't lose heart but wait patiently and everything will work out beautifully... God is faithful..JIA YOU!!!

Lesley (one of my seniors) called earlier and advise me on matric..hmm.. water shortage.. n hmmm.. old facilities...and ummm.. spicy food.. and hmmmmm... wearing baju kurung everyday???... because only skirts are allowed unless you wear a long skirt (which obviously i do not have.. XD) I thought slacks are allowed!!! luckily aunty bought me another 2 sets 2day.. so now i have 5!! awww.. meaning 1 for each studyin days.. hahaaa... funny la.. wearing the same thing every week.. hahaa.. oh well.. laughs.. at least there're some good news!! unexpectedly fast internet connection!! WHhheeee... loving lecturers they have over there!! awww.. and most importantly, there's a church to go to!!! *GRINS* thanks lesley for the precious advise..I'll survive!haha

Today.. i'm really touched.. i got a parcel from Sam, my noobkia president from Bintulu!!laughs..very thoughtful farewell prezzie..aww... I'll bring them over.. and will always remember this phrase --> DO NOT PRAY FOR LIGHTER BURDENS BUT STRONGER BACKS..Thanks Sam for all your efforts!!! And.. Esmond.. Thanks for bringing us out for supper..(sorry ah chin and shan that we didnt get to meet in the end >.<)... the cafe was playing "season in the sun" by Westlife where there's a verse that starts off with GOODBYE MICHELLE... Awwww...i really had a great time with you.. You promised me you'll continue going to church and i am reli happi to hear that!! stay strong in Christ!!

Joyce reminded me just now that she's the only one staying among the 7 of us (our gang =p) Well.. She can only leave on September for Aus.. (because she's underage for june intake.. XD poor u..)so she'll be here alone.. patss. jia you!!!! she'll start working for the time being..Crystal.. stay strong also!!! You two must take good care of each other while i'm away!!!...God be with you!!

Thanks to everyone who wished me bon voyage :D Pray that we'll see each other soon!

Hmmm.. so NOW..it's time to go!!!! :D

*waves*

*SPINS*

Yes. My life is SPINNING!! Laughs..Yesterday I was still a lower sixth form student stayin here at my hometown -- SIBU and today a phone call changes everything. yes. EVERYTHING! well, almost......

A new phase of life has just begun!! :D so here i am.. start blogging for the first time!!! :D (basically.. about my life... so i do not have to email to everyone :P laziness)

*clears throat*

To make the story short...this is what actually happened...


KEPUTUSAN PENEMPATAN CALON PROGRAM MATRIKULASI SATU TAHUN (PST) KPM AMBILAN KEDUA DAN CALON RAYUAN


Tahniah! Anda telah ditawarkan ke Program Matrikulasi,Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia.

Nama: MICHELLE HII NING XIN
No Kad Pengenalan: 900412137518
Program Pengajian : Pogram Satu Tahun
Kursus: M001 - SAINS
Nama kolej: 15-KM LABUAN
Tarikh Mendaftar: 22 Mei 2008



Yes! I am offered matrix after appealling. I was happy, shocked,excited and sad at the same time when Vivien shouted over the phone announcing the news. Laughs. I was reading it when suddenly i realised 22nd of May was exactly yesterday! JAW DROPPED. Hoping that they would tell us something like "anda boleh mendaftar seminggu selepas 22 mei", adrenaline rush ended. That means i can stil at least go to uniform camp or even youth mid-year camp. PHEW...but HISTORY MAKERS CONFERENCE!!!! aaaaaaa....

I was tryin to accept it already when Vivien called and screamed over the phone, telling me that we have to be der on 26th May!!!! i was counting..1 more day..2 more..3 more.. wait!!!! 3 MORE DAYS ONLy??!!! *screamsssss* Hahaaa.. it also means that i cant go to any of the camps.. SOBS!!!!Well, yea.. many friends and relatives were shocked..it is just too SUDDEN!! haaa.. Without the chance to scream somemore, i was dragged around WHOLE DAY buying almost everything u can think of. It was the first time i tried on soooo many different baju kurungs. I bought 3 sets of them. Hopefully, that is enough. (thinking of wearing them every single day.. hmm.. i don't know.. it might be good. at least i do not have to worry about what to wear.haha) And i'll be wearing long collar shirts, slacks, n everythin that i don't usually wear... hahaa..

Then.. i needed to hand over camp matters to others... I feel soooooo bad to ditch them last minute. SORRY to my beloved GB juniors and uniform camp committee n oso youth camp committee(esp TK..hahaa..).. I"M SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really AM!!!..>.<>.<..Stil..I'll keep you all in my prayer!!!!!! Always remember..

Phillipians 2:1-4 says...
1If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Have a great camp!!!!

Next would be History Makers conference!!!Missing such a great camp that wud be life-changing made my heart cried out even more!.. I really want to be there and grow!!! But.. still.. sorry I cant make it. T.T Stms-ians (those who r going), i'm so sorry!! I was the one persuading you all to go yet in the end i am the one not going... aaaaa...SO SORRY! and i'm goin to leave Joyce alone in the camp.. T.T SORRY!!! I'll pray that you all have a great time and expect God to speak to each one of you!! =D Stil happy that you all can go! JIA YOU!

Then..here comes another heartbreaking one..I cant meet my friends who are coming back from overseas...Aaaaaa....T.T Sorry...This is really sad.. I want to meet up with you all.. i've been waiting and missing you all.. and now when it's almost time for you all to come back.. i have to go!aaaaaa... *screams* I'm sorry...I BELIEVE GOD'LL PROVIDE A WAY FOR US TO MEET!!!! stil trusting...

Saying Goodbye to parents.. I thought it would be easier.. Hahaa.. but.. nah..i tell you.. NOT AT ALL!!!words cannot describe the feeling to be away from them when finally the day arrives..Now all i'm worried is mom.. because she worries a lot. (ahaha..) Have to commit her totally to God!! hehee... I pray that she'll have PEACE and JOY :D..Now dad and mom can have all the privacy!! XD LAUGHS..and thanks bro for calling back and for all the criticism.. hahaa.. it was sweet though.. LAUGHS!! happi paktor-ing!!

For the friends and teachers i have to leave behind..n also GB (my kids there..aaa..)n Youth worship service!!!!and.. the kids in longhouse.. TTThanks for everything you all had done in my life.. i'm really reluctant to say goodbye.. i might not have the time to say a proper goodbye to everyone of you..Sorry >.< GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!

Well Well well.. I really do not know what God's will is in my life at this moment.. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND.. It's a major test..TTkinda tough i would say..But still i believe His ways and thoughts are higher than ours.. and i'll stay strong in Him..n by faith I'll get going!!! JIA YOU!.. Although suddenly there're many many things that i have to let go, to sacrifice.. Yet..I trust that there's a purpose for all these.. and God'll make everythin perfect and beautiful in His time. :D I'll wait patiently for this day to come.. when i can look back n say.. "AH! NOW I UNDERSTAND!" hehee..

I'm so gonna miss u all..

Now.. i wanna say thank you to all the friends who are praying for me... =D THANKS A BUNCH!!!!!!!!!



*sorry if this goes a bit long-winded.. haha.. forgive me.. i would not have the chance to write so much once i get there though.. so bear with me.. haahaaa..*