Ah, how much do I love showering. XD (I am a shower freak for a reason) Apparently it makes me feel better, heat treatment probably since I take really hot showers. But if you ask me what stop me from showering then these other times?
The facts that holding the shower hose and blowing my hair make my arm muscles scream in ache. Haha. Surprised, are you? If there's one thing hardworking in me, that would be those neurotransmitters and receptors involved in pain. Haha.
Um.. I know all these babblingss have no connection with the title. (I can't think. I had too much revisions) Haha.
Okay, I pray in showers (well, I thought it's cool. you cant talk in a shower with anybody else since I havent seen any waterproof phones, so God gets the special treat). UMm. I know. XD
So, I was praying and I am too thankful. Because, this period (exam preparation) last year, I was..
1. taking 8 paracetamols everyday (codeines on super-bad day)
2. drinking cups and cups of coffee to stay awake (since I cant sleep at night and I cant stay awake during daytime)
3. working two days a week (which is enough to wear me out)
4. hardly sleep well at night (it's normal for me though)
5. stressed out to the max and super unprepared for the exam.
And, this year.. I am..
1. not having the chance to take 8 paracetamol for a day yet. (though I had to take some occasionally)
2. taking this SNRI (complicated as it sounds) which makes the pain more bearable in some sense
3. drinking NO COFFEE (it makes my condition worse)
4. NOT WORKING! (and that's why I could be writing this on a saturday night)
5. sleeping really well lately (though I never feel rested but at least I am not awake!)
6. not too stressed because I HAVE GROWN! and I have Mr Man to share.
7. on quite a good track for my progress.
8. having Mr.Man to shout at me when I ask me if I would fail. Haha.
Too thankful. What more can I ask? If you ask me, if my conditions get better this year? I might have to disappoint you by telling you that, no, but it got worse. To get up from the bed each morning, I have to wrestle, pray and bear that really bad aching, pain, stiffness. My shoulders and my back ache sitting down whole day revising. My hands ache from writing and cooking my survival meals. The pain never leave me, but I learn not to focus on these pains, but to focus on how God bless me and help me with these pains. Looking back, I can only be too thankful for His faithfulness. He never left me nor forsake me but He is giving me more and more blessings each day.
This morning,
Me: I am still stuck in bed.
Mr. Man: New day New you?
Me: =)
Yes, His grace is renewed every morning. I am more than convinced.
Sorry for being quite random really. Ops. *back to studies* :(
