Dispensing Exam

Trust me, I am so tired now, mentally and physically. An exam never failed torturing me! I wonder why! But by His grace, I would say I do get better (less panicked) as compared to last time. Ahh well.. I am proud that I did not take beta-blocker, propranolol (something that slows your heartbeat) this time. But still, i tried something homeopathic. (for calming effects)

Some sort of flower remedies it is, well, I would say it does help. But, I really cant be sure if it was just placebo effects. Haha. I got it just because the price went down, to be honest. Ah wells, try it!

So,  two days before my dispensing exam, I was talking to my housemate over the breakfast (just an usual breakfast) Had the day planned earlier on with stacks of prescriptions to study, but who knew, I started throwing out (everything!) and soon fainting before I even finished off 10 prescriptions. I could not stand properly and started fainting and fell down in the toilet. Thank God I got my housemate before I passed out!! They tried to massage me (suspecting a heat stroke) but nothing got better. Took two paracetamol (panadol) and it did not get any better. We were thinking if I had to visit the hospital again but I prayed really hard and told them I should try to sleep and see what happened. I sleeeeeept (waking in the middle feeling giddy still) and sleeeept until 5pm! Woke up feeeeling really weak, and the thought of having dispensing exam on monday really freaked me out. What ifs..

Found myself totally helpless in bed, gazing into the air. I prayed, really hard. I remembered I was desperate, telling Him, okay, I got to be fit for this important exam, I shall recover fast and be prepared, nothing should come anymore XD I was discouraged that time. and hahas, guess what, you wouldnt know if I nearly fainted if you saw me the next day in church. :) |He was FAITHFUL! My housemate nearly forgot about me fainting the day before.

But, my heart which never pumped faster than other people during normal times started being naughty again the night before exam. I could not sleeep!!! Sleeeeplesss.. And I sleept the morning away. (with endless nightmares) I was feeeeling really lousy physically. Prayer, I was praying so hard again for this exam. And PTL I made it through!!!!!...We were all soooo nervous. Three hours of exam which decide our summer holiday or worst, if we are repeating second year.

I nearly passed up a prescription which was outdated (sorry, too pharmacy-ish XD). I spotted the date last minute! Ah, God must had knocked my head on that. Hahas. And oh ya, I was really thankful! I got the number 28 (CL, I thought of your birthday! LOL) and the seat was next to everything I needed to get. Syringes, bottles, boxes and even the items on my prescriptions. Ah, God was good to me.  BUT, I got semething messed up, but I hope it is not bad enough to fail the exam. I was so shaky after knowing it after the exam. And a friend, with a simple phrase, "Leave the rest to Him!" stopped me from worrying. :) So true, where's my faith? It's all in His hands now. 

Saw some really sad, helpless faces for those who couldnt finish in time. I felt for them. sighs. I wouldnt say this exam is fair. Some people get easy items on their prescription, while some have to measure 7 bottles of drugs (super time-consuming). Ahh.. :( sobs. I hope they are okay.

That day being in bed whole day was helpless, weak moments. I came to find myself so weak and small. And how big He is that there is no way I could depend on myself. Once again, I was reminded of His faithfulness and being submissive.

One exam down, a presentation due thursday and another exam in two weeks time and here comes holiday!!!! :) Ah, I cant wait. It's been a crazy semester. Time just flew!