I know, it's been too long since I updated my blog again. I can never be discipline!! but today, I must record this down!! :D It's toooo important to be put aside.
If you know me, I am dating this young man, Esmond for almost a year now. And guess what, he is baptized today! Remember the story which I told earlier on when he wasn't a Christian five years ago? God finally answers prayers two days ago after five years. How great is our God?
When he first became a Christian in 2008, he never get baptized as to him, it means a lot to him for his mom to agree on the baptism. He really loves his mom so much and I know this is really tough for him because after so many attempts of seeking approval, his mom still never said yes. We had been praying really hard, of course, we want his mom to agree on his decision, but what if she never did? It was always difficult for him and at some points, I couldnt understand as I am born in a Christian family and all I could do is pray, pray and pray, not knowing when and how.
He told me that he was always worried when people asked if he is baptized or why is he not baptized. I guess he could not find an answer to that especially when one is his most loved mom and one is his beloved Father in heaven. But God, is GREAT. He answered his prayer two days ago in the most unexpected way, through a phone call, his mom agreed and believed that he had made the right choice. It's as if God had told her personally. It's so amazing and suddenly so easy. It came so quick and sudden I was dumbfounded when I received this news through whatsapp. I was screaming in joy as I was shopping in York with one of my besties, Phebe. This kind of joy, I could not describe. I told my best friends, my parents and they all rejoiced with me.
Then the challenge came. The baptism is today! Two days after the news?! I am not prepared. I haven't got my baptism card and I haven't booked a ticket to Germany. How could I miss this? Oh no, no.. I had been waiting for this day for so long. I want to be there to witness it, to support him, to experience it. Ahhh.. But no, I couldn't because it happened so suddenly as a baptism session was arranged for him in the church camp today. He decided to be baptized today. Trust me, I was overwhelmed with emotions. So happy for him yet so sad that I can't be there. This kind of emotions was almost similar to the one I faced few years ago when I had to miss both my brothers' graduations. It was awful. i cried so hard, so hard. I felt so small and weak I cant see the joy any longer. I was selfish, so selfish that I want to be there so much even knowing that Esmond had waited enough and he really did not deserve to wait anymore for this day.
In the midst of these emotions, I cried out to God in gratitude and in pain. They are both my lovers. I know how glad God is right now to see his son being so anxious about getting baptized and tell the whole wide world that he is a Christian and he loves the Father. But I want to be there. The pain did not go away until awesome friends, Yun Kai and Ee Heng who updated me with his pictures of being baptized. Thank you so much! You don't know how much the efforts meant to me. At that very moment, I came to my knees and broke down in tears. The joy was overflowing in me. I was so touched by His grace and love. Nothing, absolutely nothing matters at this moment. All my emotions and absences and distance all became insignificant in that second. It was a really special moment, at least so special that I don't know how to describe it because I had never experienced such JOY to that extent, when I was struggling with the pain just a second ago. Reminded by His grace in his life over and over again that moment like watching a movie, I was crying in joy.
He is baptized! He is baptized! He is baptized!!!!!! God works in wonders. Today, through him, my love on earth, I experienced the most abundant joy from my love in heaven. This joy is complete, non comparable. Thank you Father, thank you aunty, thank you everyone who has been praying for us, and those who had been there in this spiritual journey and thanks for those who were there to support him today. Thanks Pat and Daniel for baptizing Esmond. We will always remember this day and press on till the end of the day. Keep praying for us as we continue walking on this journey of faith, side by side.
Just two weeks ago, I responded to an altar call of full time ministry. It was a leap of faith, I called it. Because I don't know how it's going to be and when. But I know, I want to lose this life for Him. I heard Him. Pray for us,, to be equipped so God could use us mightily for His kingdom and that we could serve Him together.
P.S: I am such an emotional being, poor him :P
In the midst of these emotions, I cried out to God in gratitude and in pain. They are both my lovers. I know how glad God is right now to see his son being so anxious about getting baptized and tell the whole wide world that he is a Christian and he loves the Father. But I want to be there. The pain did not go away until awesome friends, Yun Kai and Ee Heng who updated me with his pictures of being baptized. Thank you so much! You don't know how much the efforts meant to me. At that very moment, I came to my knees and broke down in tears. The joy was overflowing in me. I was so touched by His grace and love. Nothing, absolutely nothing matters at this moment. All my emotions and absences and distance all became insignificant in that second. It was a really special moment, at least so special that I don't know how to describe it because I had never experienced such JOY to that extent, when I was struggling with the pain just a second ago. Reminded by His grace in his life over and over again that moment like watching a movie, I was crying in joy.
He is baptized! He is baptized! He is baptized!!!!!! God works in wonders. Today, through him, my love on earth, I experienced the most abundant joy from my love in heaven. This joy is complete, non comparable. Thank you Father, thank you aunty, thank you everyone who has been praying for us, and those who had been there in this spiritual journey and thanks for those who were there to support him today. Thanks Pat and Daniel for baptizing Esmond. We will always remember this day and press on till the end of the day. Keep praying for us as we continue walking on this journey of faith, side by side.
Just two weeks ago, I responded to an altar call of full time ministry. It was a leap of faith, I called it. Because I don't know how it's going to be and when. But I know, I want to lose this life for Him. I heard Him. Pray for us,, to be equipped so God could use us mightily for His kingdom and that we could serve Him together.
P.S: I am such an emotional being, poor him :P
