I AM ON FIRE AGAIN! PTL!

So I am back from The Hope Germany Festival!! It was a four days and three nights camp, so many testimonials, so many stories, so many lives touched, so many amazing things, so dear readers, I challenge u, this is going to be a super long entry. I want to write it all so that I don’t forget every bit of its goodness. & to remind myself what I have learnt from time to time as I look back.

So right after exam, I flew to Germany to meet Mr.man but the main purpose is to come to this camp!! It’s been so long since I long to be close to God to hear from Him again. And this camp has totally given me so much more than I could ever expect.

The theme was Why not? It was based on Exodus, where we Christians are illustrated as the Israelites, Pharoah the Satan/enemy and Egypt our personal bondage from freedom. And how after so many things that God has done to Israelites, it still could not convince them He is God. Are we the same? Staying in the wilderness for forty years, complaining and grumbling, not fulfilling His purpose to go into the Promise Land? Being bonded to our personal Egypt.

I learnt so much in this camp, I remember this sermon when they said that Christian life challenges us to sacrifice, to face enemies and even to have lifestyle changes. Are we ready to give up this space and time to spend time with God and even to reach out? Are we ready when people come and tell us that we are weird and trying to be “holy”? Are we ready when friends abandon us because they think we are too spiritual? Are you ready to give up and fast the things u like for the sake of God’s work?

And, EE was the workshop I went. He said, we reach out not because only the bible says so. But because WE LOVE. When I joined the workshop on discipleship, I was challenged again. She asked, if you were to teach a person to ride the bicycle, what’s the first thing you would do? We were talking about different ways, discussing about how we learnt to ride the bicycle. But, she said, no, that comes after because if u were to teach someone how to ride the bicycle, u need to be able to ride the bicycle yourself! I was like, Oh ya!!.. so if you were to make disciples, you need to know yourself about this salvation before you could even teach people. And this is phase 0, I was struck by it, I was asking myself, what am I waiting? Why am I not equipping myself yet?

There are so many testimonials that truly touched me in this festival, by looking at how God touched their lives. And the ones that touched me the most were how they are able to surrender their lives for God’s works. I was so encouraged. I cried. I repented before God. I remember how I was so on fire for my almighty God and where did this fire go all these years? I remember my vow with God to be a missionary, well a short term missionary was the promise though. (Haha) It was not a joke. Where did all these passion for people go? How did they die?

The last evening at the camp, I broke down before Him as I hugged Esmond and we were both praying earnestly. I was asking God, how could this be possible that Your love is so amazing. I was telling God that the scene of me n esmond praying earnestly together before Him was indeed ridiculous. I used the word ridiculous because I could never expect it to be happening. I never expect that God could touch us to this extent when I only ask Him to touch us, but His grace and love is more amazing than what we can expect. It can be so ridiculous because it cannot be comprehend, it is too amazing. When I shared about our stories and saw how souls are touched and encouraged by us, I could not praise Him more. Lord, finally, I sow in tears but I reap in joy.

You may not be gifted but you can be the most fitting person in His will, in the place where He put u in to fulfil His purposes. I always thought I cant play instruments, I cant sing, I cant really speak well not even to say to preach, I can’t see myself a talented person in any sense. But I know I love God, I want this intimate relationship with our God, I enjoy His presence and I want to serve Him for the rest of my lives but I don’t know how. When Esmond was trying to tell me the same thing, that he is not good enough, these words came out of my mouth, “Are u trying to say that u, the creation of God is not good enough? Are you an accident u mean?” He was touched, I was speechless because  know it’s from the holy spirit. So we came to realise that yes, we are all special and we can all play a part as the body of Christ to serve Him.

So, at the end of this camp. We all have different visions for God. I want to reach out for the students in my uni, especially the Malaysians. It’s my last year in Uni. And pastor came to me few months ago about doing something like a Malaysian night to tell the church members about us and so they can know more about us and at the same time, support us. So.. why not? I am going to do this and at the same time, reach out to the new students and of course, every Malaysian student at least that I could invite them to. I believe that God is going to make things amazing again!

Being motivated again in this camp, I have finally come to know that yes, I want to start from phase 0 for discipleship! I want to get equipped so that I can go forth and make disciples! I had always failed over the years to equip myself with biblical knowledge to learn more about His words as I am tooooo lazy but this time God is great!!! He sent me a german! She is going to be mentoring me and we are going to do bible study together. Tell me, why not? He works in amazing ways! I never imagine that I would end up in Hope Germany Festival and starting to read the bible with a German friend! GOD IS GOOD!

Also, the fellowship was awesome!! I met a lot of new people in this camp, being able to have a couple really meaningful and impacting conversations. I like the fact where there are a lot of slots where we can just chill and chat and talk about our faith our lives. I learn so much from all these conversations and people that God has brought into my life.

To see how the most unexpected person being touched and people getting baptised. I cant comprehend and I found myself speechless again and again as I look upon His grace and blessings for the people who are willing to open their hearts to Him. So many stories told, so much tears shed. The tears of repentance, tears of joy, tears of being touched. I could feel the holy spirit working among people. Tell me that how could it be if this God is unreal.

So, why not? It’s time to change!

Multiple posts in one.

Too many good things happened in these few weeks and it would be a shame if I dont record them down.


The best weekend of life

Haha, yes. It was the best. A friday outing with the closed ones in Durham, plainly enjoying the sun, and it ended with an early birthday surprise!!! everyone took a bus down to durham just to surprise me at the restaurant during dinner time. I was so touched, so pampered, feeling so blessed. and not to forget, the prezzies I got made me smile like a kid!!! That Saturday was my last day at work, of course, it had been a long waited day. But, guess what, I was reluctant, telling the few methadone patients that I am leaving, having them say goodbye and wish me luck was again a whole new experience. These people might be the people the society dislikes, but I am sure if you love them like any person in life, they love you back. Michelle, my supervisor came in with a bunch of flowers, a card and a photo frame with everyone in the picture. She had been the best supervisor really, I am more than blessed to have her, always so kind to swap my shifts whenever I cant make them. And, what else, two of my colleagues appeared with a cake and pizza hut deliveries!!! It came so unexpectedly, so touched and really feeling so blessed to have met these awesome people in life.And Sunday, Candy and I had a really good session of sharing about lives, issues, blessings in that 3 hours long bus ride to Manchester. Those times were always cherished. And to end this weekend up, my man was standing there welcoming with a hug at the arrival hall in Memmingen. To meet up finally was such a new experience, I could only be thankful for such a thing to happen. 

The surprise party, 30th March 2012

The card and prezie from Michelle and the flowers at the back :)

Safina baked me that gorgeous cake, and thats me in uniform for the last time !

Travelling

The journey started with a missed train! Haha. New train and bus tickets had to be bought again. (Not that cheap really XD) Though it was not the best thing to happen and it was definitely a lesson learnt. And, I am just thankful of the attitude we both had when it happened. We knew we both contributed to being late and there was no point blaming and guess what, it did not affect us that much as we would expected. PTL! It was a rainy 3 days 2 nite trip in Prague!! But fret not, we did enjoy the rain, the total different experience. We enjoyed the cheap food, the unending laughs (My man is super lame, I am sure you agree if you ever get to know him), beautiful buildings, a special bread and the best was just plainly spending time together. And, the journey followed by meeting up with another few friends of mine in Munich. Another 2 days of fun and laugh. And what not, SNOW in SPRING! imagine having snow on blooming flowers. How beautiful could that be. More laughs, fellowships and of course beer sessions in Germany! Haha. Travelling with people you love is always the best thing. The most magnificent view was the one at Neuschwanstein castle I would say. God had been great, everyone was fit and well despite the bad weather and we all really had fun! It was the most relaxing trip ever because I could be all dependant on Mr man with everything, I only need to "carry" myself. Haha. Nothing more. How thankful. To travel during easter was not usual because normally I would be in the church on easter to celebrate His resurrection. But I have learnt that we can celebrate it wherever and whenever we are because we know that He truly lives that today we can be so free and joyful.

On our way back from Prague. :D

On the mountains, Germany

My 22nd Birthday

It all started with a dinner treat at a mexican restaurant from Mr man the night before. To be honest, least expectation I had out of him because he is not that kind of a romantic person but I was wrong!..That midnight, I fell asleep before 12. Waking up to a room full of peach scented candles and romantic songs wad surprising! And he actually decorated me a cakey! I was smiling in his embrace because I know he made that all happened just because of me, a person who never fail to be touched at surprises. He could never understand, but he did it anwyays. haha. And the next day was even more cool! He had a quest for me when he was out to town! making me running around looking for my prezzies! This is so not him! Of course, I am more than happy to find myself a birthday card from dad n mom and a polaroid camera from him, but you know what it was the efforts he made that made me smile. The efforts that I appreciate. And I got a postcard sent from a bloved friend all the way to Germany!!! Was ultra super happy! It was all great, with all the wishes and messages from all over the world :D Thanks for everything all you people who makes my life all that wonderful" And I know the ultimate one I have to thank is my Father Lord in heaven. 

The quest started with the note this miniature Mr man held. 

The rest of my time spent in Aalen, where Mr man lives was awesome. It was just a small quiet town. Meeting up with his friends, his church community and plainly understanding his daily routines were generally a wonderful experience. Having to cook for him and waiting him come back from class while I do my revisions for the coming exam were all simply a joy. The stroll in the evening, the time spent cooking together, praying together, watching movies and getting to know each other more were all much cherished. We grow to know each other more and more throughout the time spent together, good and bad things of course. Love is not blind, trust me, but it helps you accept each other for who we are. Being pampered of course was still the best thing ever. God, has been too good, too good blessing me with such a good mature man. I could only pray that He allows the journey to continue till we are united finally one day in the church. And my pain intensity decreases so much, believe it or not, with him aside :). PTL!

To sum it all up, too many blessings make me wonder how could one be not appreciative with God's grace. 

Happiness

Ah, My first ever spa experience today with my sis in law. Fellowship was awesome. The massage was superb. I feel so pampered. Haha. Plain happiness!! :D I was in sauna and I actually realised myself feeling almost painless! Good news eh?.. at least, I can enjoy that short 15 mins of pain free period. PTL!

and, yes, one more week to a jobless life!! one more week to seeing Esmond! One more week to easter holidaay!!!!! I can't help but smiling!

and yes, one more week to............... tonneeeessss of revision XD gasps. NVM!!!!! fret not! there are too many things to be thankful about! :D

Be still

Many times.. it's not easy to stay still and enjoy the space we have got. It's friday, for so long that i have never anticipated weekend as much as a student as saturday means 7 hours of work till 11pm, not sweet at all.

It's friday today, but here I am listening to Yiruma's work.. I feel so much peace, plainly giving thanks for the past busy week and another busy one ahead because I know, after that it would be more great ones to come because it's easter holiday! :D

Space is an amazing thing. Without your own space, you feel strained. Too much of it, you got lonely. The right amount of space is perfect. :D you get couples shouting at each other saying, you make me suffocated or kids shouting at their parents to leave them alone. The connection between beings could be so beautiful with the right amount of space, and yet so unpleasant if too much space is invaded. Have you ever wonder, but why is it that, the more space you give God, the more you let God invade your life, the more peace and joy you will be filled with. Isn't this special? But why, we, Christians, still always do not bother to spend this time with the only One who could satisfy the soul yet trying so hard to ask why extended solitude tortures and why stolen space strains.

I can't help but feel blessed for this special One I could spend my space with, no matter how much, no matter how long, no matter when, no matter how. It's always beautiful. Thank you Lord for such a friend, lover, soul mate you are. I could only grow to love you more each day.

Esmond and I are learning to give each other the right amount of space, believe me, it's such a beautiful yet challenging thing to learn =)

It's been LONG

I know, I just could never be consistent. Haha, one of my besties, Joyce has come to me and complained about my laziness. Haha. So here I am. Updates!!


So, it's been about more than a year now that I am diagnosed with fibromyalgia. FMS (fibromyalgia (fi-bro-my-Al-juh) syndrome) is a widespread musculoskeletal pain and fatigue disorder for which the cause is still unknown. Fibromyalgia means pain in the fibrous tissues in the body. [http://ukfibromyalgia.com/what-is-fm.html] Trust me, it is not pleasant at all. I got up in the morning, feeling not rested at all and do you remember the feeling you have first thing you wake up the day after you hiked or been to the gym. Thats how I feel almost everyday, sometimes worse sometimes better. There are good and bad days (PHEW!).. and ya, pain, ache, stiffness all over.. different parts of the body on different days.. I start to get pain in the eyes, head and even more sensitive to cold, heat, light and sound. And, good sleep? It happens once in a blue moon. Fatigue is my best friend but I am glad that the one symptom that I havent got and will not ever got it by faith n His grace is depression!! 


When I just knew about it, it was a stressful period of time for acceptance, knowing that there is no cure and that I need to take medication everyday to manage the symptoms and of course, it's time to slow things down and I have to know that it is so going to affect my quality of life. But, God has been really faithful, He sent wonderful people into my lives to pull me through this period and the most important thing was He sent holy spirit to comfort. There are times when the pain could be so intense that all I could do is cry, yes, I am helpless and it's because of this helplessness that I know how Big my God is and how weak I could be that He could make me strong.


I learnt to see life differently, there is so much to learn being weak as I had always grown up being the strong and big one among my friends, never was I weak. Haha. I have to learn to say no to things I cannot do. I have to learn to tell people I dont feel okay. I have to learn to trust and believe that I will be fine. I learn to give thanks to little things, from a good 15 mins nap to a merely an hour sunshine. When I got bedridden, I learnt to stay quiet and speak to God. There are just so many things to learn. Pain has made me stronger. 


I had been working in this pharmacy for the last 2 years, and in more than a week time I am going to quit this job. I might be reluctant or sad to leave, or I might be blaming God for this weird sickness I got, but instead I am grateful that I have finally learnt how to let go in this one year. Letting go has never been easy for me. Thanks to him, this special person that I have not introduced. He taught me how to let go and I dont have to prove myself strong by being bonded to something making me feel worse day by day. 


He is a man whom God brought into my lives about 5 years ago. We were in high school back then. He was in the class next to mine. It was great, we were attracted to each other after some time. We were different. He's always discipline and I was always living a disorganised life how he would put it. Everything seems perfect when our friends and families are happy about us going out, but he was not a Christian. It was a painful decision to make.


Years had passed. We both went to different colleges and had different friends.And now even, He is in Germany and I am in the UK. At some points of our lives, we thought no one could replace this position in our hearts but at other points of our lives, it's as if we had forgotten about each other. But, we stayed single all these years until now that we are finally back together, this time as two Christians who love God and earnestly seek Him, putting Him as the head of our relationship. 


The first time we spent time after so many years, I was touched to see him saying grace before our meal when we met. Trust me, it was the most beautiful moment to see the person you love coming before God. It was the first time we met in the UK last summer and the first time I witnessed this beautiful sight after he became a Christian in college. I believe that God has finally make things beautiful in His time. 


So much to learn, so many challenges ahead of us now that we are known as a couple. He is always so rational and caring in his own ways. He is always generous with words of affirmation and always ready to learn more about me. He is always telling me that things gonna be okay because God is in charge. He has become this godly man I had been longing for. Of course, he would not be perfect, but I am sure as God put us together, we will see each other as the most beautiful being God has ever created. And, only I realise that it's not all about romance and gifts. It's about learning, accepting and most importantly, blessing and encouraging each other thru our lives despite the distance between us. We might not agree on everything but it's then this effort to sort things out make it all beautiful. Thanks for making me feel like a woman. It's good to have you, Esmond. =) 

A summer to remember

Ah, it's been so long again since I last blogged. It's because my lappie broke, so tonight, (since I cant sleep) I grab my housemate's lappie and decided to blog about this really meaningful summer!

It started with Paris trip with coursemates which I had talked about earlier on. Then, it was HOME! It was great how I finally met up with the girls and old classmates and matrix mates =). It's been two years. I was welcomed with all the "OH MY, YOU HAVE GROWN FAT!" haha. I know I know. It was bad at frst but soon I got used with the expressions and responses really. Haha. I had sleepover sessions with the girls and it was awesome, catching up with lives and everything happened in the last two years. We could just stayed up talking and talking till sun rise. Haha. Girls are chatterboxes! We spent time skype dating the others who are in the different corners of the world. I really missed all the times we used to spend really and it was awesome this time that we get to catch up and just spend time! I am so happy that Grace is joining me this September! I met up with old classmates too!! We could spend the whole night talking and talking about our uni lives. HAha. And, those in India are the less fortunate ones. So, we would be listening to all the complaints really about their lives there. And, I felt so grateful about being here now! Of course, we couldnt help gossiping really.. haha, which is bad! Haha. Meeting up old friends was great, different gangs different feelings but they were all awesome. I would say almost each of us had grown to be mature. Everyone seems to have different views about lives now, compared to high school days. And, a lot of them are no longer single! haha. (that's the gossip part really!) Of course, the time spent with the family is so much treasured! Especially finally meeting up with my eldest bro and my sis in law! I really missed those moments we spent crapping, laughing and just being a family! I really do miss them and I wish they are here with us! Dad and mom had been pampering me soooo much like a princess this trip home. Haha, and also my nanny! I seriously miss it! And, I had a lot of rabbits!! ahhh!.. cruel eh? it's known to be tonic though. Haha.

Besides meeting up and catching up, this trip home was all about doctor appointments. Well, I had never mentioned really how my body had grown pretty weak over these years. I was admitted hospital and all. So, finally, I am diagnosed to have a condition called fibromyalgia after seeing a few specialists here in UK and back home. It's basically a condition with pain all over the body, with no specific causes and cure. But, thank God that I had found a really suitable medicine which manages the condition well. it's not life threatening, just affective in one way or another but I believe, by His grace, I will be all well :). I have another condition called plantar fasciitis, where I feel pain around the arch of my feet. I had got injections for the heels and so, they are much relieved too. And, I had few sessions with the "chinese doctor" too. It really helped a lot as according to the doctor, I have dislocated joints (which might have caused more pain). So all in all, I am all right now and I am all grateful! And, really thanks my parents for spending a lot on my health issues this trip!

I had to come back earlier to Sunderland as I need to do my shifts. So, luckily, Esmond came to visit me for three weeks. It was awesome three weeks. Trust me, we went hiking, picnic, canoeing, strolling around the north east. It was just plainly catching up and spending time together. It had been so long since I last met him and I really do miss him! He's still as nice as ever and he has really grown a lot, into a mature man now! But, the lame bit is never changed. Haha. We spent time doing simple things yet meaningful! We spent time praying together too and I am really touched seeing him a christian now! :) I am more than thankful for what a friend he is. I really find him a great company over the 3 weeks as we travelled together, taking it slow and enjoying His creation in the most peaceful pace. (I bet it was all good cos he carried everything for me! =P) I really thank God for the chance of the fellowship together.  Ah, I miss you and thanks! I shed tears when he left, tears of reluctance :(. We shall meet again, in Germany!

Ah, so only two weeks left now till school starts. I better cherish the time left! =) That's a long messy entry =X

One last paper left!! & Happy Birthday Kai Ling!

It's beeeeeeen torturing! but thank God that there's only one more left.

Exam today was sooooo energy consuming!

But yays, 

it's over!!!! =)
Thank God! 

ONE MORE! just ONE MORE!

Then it's going to be SUMMER HOLIDAY!

London, paris and HOME!!!! then Germany? =)

Food to keep us survive till now. HAHA.

Happy Birthday Housemate Kai Ling =)

Connie's 21st

It was Connie's birthday on the 16th few days ago. It was exam period so we couldnt do much celebration. But it was all good times =)

What exam brings!

I wonder really.. why I am so worried about exam when it's just an exam after all. It's the way we were brought up I guess, never allowed to fail and was always expected to excel. It used to drag me so much throughout the years, to be honest, still now I could get so stressed out over that few pieces of papers. (It's getting better, really :))

But, to look at it differently, so many times, I found myself so humble and weak before Him. I know I need Him. Few days ago, I found myself on my knees telling Him I could not go any further. (It seriously sound like there's a major issue) HAhaha. And that's when His strength is made perfect. But, yes.. that's how weak I could get when it comes to exam. I believe everyone has different fears in life, and I am sure exam is one of mine. 

So, it's sad sometimes to feel oh-i-cant-do-it.. But, hey.. God brings lovely people into life to make it beautiful. I am reminded again that He is ever faithful. Encouragements, smiles, food, every single jia you means a lot. A prayer is so much needed during these times. And, skype dates! They never failed making me smile. I had a friend telling me.. it's nothing to lose really because nothing in this world belongs to us. Even if I fail.. God would not love me less. So what's so big deal about it?? So TRUE. but yes, the chemicals in my body are out of their minds XD haha. Anyway, the first one went alright. (I wouldnt say I would excel but :) no pressure heys.) Thanks for the every encouragements given :)

It's all about coping. Really.=)

Haha, oh we were stressed. and randomness! :)

Steamed pao-s for breakfast! :)

And one of the girls from the gang has a boyfriend already!!! Ah, I just can't help mentioning it here! Congratulations Melissa!! My wishes for both of you to be "xin fu"!! :) Yays. We are really happy about it. We have this special group in fb where we talk and update really. And ah, reading their stories definitely plaster a smile on our faces =) Aw, HE IS ROMANTIC! :P

Anyways, Fang fang and Xiao Hei got married!! It's sooo sweet! God has finally put them together! And I am sure they are being such a good example as God-loving artists. To LOVE "properly" =) HEHE. Touching wei!

And I should really stop youtube-ing and grab some rest and start reading for my friday paper. Pathology and Therapeutics! Ah, the most to memorise!


A friend wrote this to me , "We don't have to do it ourselves, do we? We have God. His infinite strength and love will get us through." beautiful :)

Exam is never my thing!

:( I m stressed out!!! 

Shifts to cover.

Endless notes to read.

It's 3 days away.

Aiks.

Prayers needed!

Was really unsettled last night.

But thank God for a restful sleep. 

:)

The sky is gloomy. Sobs

Easter Sunday!

It's Easter Sunday and it's also my first time helping out with the beacons! Meaning, the kids sunday school, of kids ranging from the age of 2-7/8 i think. It's beeen a while since I last worked with the kids!! I was quite excited with the new experience! 

I really love kids!!! Their innocence can never fail to make me smile! and, they are just way tooooo cute! I was bringing them down to the toilet and helping them to wash their hands and dry them.. It reminds me of the good old Girls' Brigade days  when we used to help out with the cadets'. Aww..the adorable ones.

They reminded me of JOY. They are all so energetic and joyful that Christ is risen! When they were told to draw what makes them sad, I was expecting them to draw things like "when someone snatches my  barbie doll" but I was surprised to see a lot of them drawing the death of Christ in their own very ways! We sang and danced (yes, danced! haha) and played games! I won myself an easter egg! :) hahaha. It was just.. awesome to be able to be one of them again! (to be young! XD) 

Their theme song! and we sang it with actions! =) It's indeed a fun sunday morning!

Happy Mothers' Day!

It's so funny how I got my first mothers' day present from my beloved "son". Haha. I called him ah giang and he called me ah ma! umm.. I dont remember how did this start. But I guess I look old enough to become mom or even grandma to a few friends? Haha. and even nanny? Yikes. Anyway, it's mothers' day for the british today! :) And I got this cute prezzie!

He can really draw, right??!!! And it's so nice of him to draw such a cute me! XD hahas. How i wish it's true!haha. I was overjoyed and honoured to receive this in church this morning while the other moms are getting sweet prezzies from their kids. :D It really made me smile! thanks so much for making my day! :) 

Mom, you were in my thought today! :) Happy Mothers' Day I want to tell you! MISS U LOTS!

And then, we had a "Sunday Night Live" at Starbucks. And I took a few pics with my phone. Basically, we were there to make Starbucks happy (buying coffee XD)! haha, nah.. we were well fed with wonderful music and lovely testimonials :D and of course, fellowship!

Something really funny. There were two guys standing on the door and he was saying, "Oh come on, come and join us." They just smiled, stood there and listened to the first song. And then when he said "Ok, this next song is a song I wrote, talking about how God has always been there." (if i don't forget wrongly) They left straight away! We all laughed, but.. ah, sad  :(! how people reject to hear about Him..

Sharing session with Dave, our pastor.

He is really good! :)

McD and a Friday night

I simply like the new modern design of McDonald's!

We had a wonderful stroll to the beach, met the juniors there. Had a good laugh and crazy screams! haha. Good times. It's so beautiful when the sand just flew past in rhythm as the crazy wind blew.

How much longer shall I wait, O Lord? 

It's so windy!

Another windy day! Let me check, the forecast says it's blowing at 39mph!!! You could barely move when it's blowing from the opposite direction of where you are going. And, your hair just go everywhere, even your bag cant stay on your shoulder properly! You just move forward or backwards from all directions! Trust me! You could feel that your phone might get blown if you don't grip it tight. SCARY! And if you happen to be carrying a plastic bag, it'll be going everywhere! And I was carrying notes and the paper, basically hugging them! And I think it's funny how you could stand at one point, having bright sunshine above your head that minute and the next, it's covered by the clouds! :) You can actually get it indoor! 

And I was bored enough to actually document it. XD

Look at the treees! And listen to the sound of the wind, it's fierce! And, the clouds!(I wasnt moving at all) And, in this, if you see properly, you could see what I meant about the sunshine, being there and gone next sec. (not very good in this one, don't know why I cant upload another vid) And I was holding my cam with both hands, it moved so much!

Pay attention to the fast-moving clouds above the static houses! I have never seen such scene in Malaysia. And, I think I enjoy looking at them, provided that I am staying indoor! :D

If it is one of your windy days (lots of ups and down) in life, don't worry. You will still get the sunshine (hope!) as the clouds (problems) get blown away (The clouds listen to Him XD) Reminds me of faith!

it's a monday!

Well well.. it's been good four days of shifts..(working as a dispensing assistant in a pharmacy.. just realised i haven;t updated on that) which made up to 24.5 hrs in total for the last four days!. Not easy at all! I could hardly feel my feeeet now. But the good part is it's over and it'd be a week till my next shift :) so time for exam preparation and some gooooood rest..I'm watching westlife tomorrow night!!! :) excited for the first concert ever :)))

Had a productive ten mins nap before work. Being thankful about it! :)

Finally had riceee for dinner! so satisfied and grateful.

Oh, I received a news, which I had beeeeen waiting for months. It's about this summer placement in pharmacy. I didnt get it! Hmm.. to be honest, I am thankful in some ways that I gonna get a good holiday then (finally!) Though it might seem disappointing but well, i got the whole life chance to work.. so.. summer holidays shall be spent holidaying XD (but I still have 12 hours to work per week, with a month holiday only) Cant wait to be back homee..! :)

Done the last case studies presentation this morning! We got 70 from this "stingy" lecturer. So we were overjoyed! haha. :)

our 70! I think it was 60+ in his head :) touched!!! XD

our lunch, not bad at all! :) at the uni cafeteria

Read about this, this morning. And I was thinking of sharing it.

Isaiah 64:8-

Yet, O Lord, You are our Father; we are the clay, and You our Potter, and we all are the work of your hand. 

[I like the story about the couple who went into an antique shop one day and found a beautiful teacup sitting on a shelf. They took it off the shelf so they could look at it closely, and they said,'We really want to buy this gorgeous cup."

All of a sudden, the teacup began to  talk, saying,"I wasn't always like this. There was a time when I was just a cold, hard, colourless lump of clay. One day my master picked me up and said," I could do something with this." Then he started to pat me, and roll me, and change my shape. I said,"What are you doing?That hurts. I don't know if I want to look like this! Stop!'' But he said,"Not yet."

Then he put me on a wheel and began to spin me around and around, until I screamed,"Let me off, I am getting dizzy!" "Not yet", he said. Then he shaped me into a cup and put me into a hot oven. I cried, "Let me out! It's hot in here, I am suffocating." but he just looked at me through that little glass window and smiled and said, "Not yet".

When he took me out , I thought his  work on me was over, but then he started to paint me. I couldn't believe what he did next. He put me back into the oven, and I said," You have to believe me; I can't stand this! Please let me out!" but he said, "Not yet". Finally he took me out of the oven and set me up on the shelf an held me before a mirror. I couldn't believe my eyes, I had become a beautiful teacup that everyone wants to buy."

There may be things going on inside us that we do not understand. But when we finally arrive at that place where God wants to bring us, we will see how it has prepared us for what God wanted for us all along.]

Beautiful, isn't it? :) It encourages me so much.

Busy, busy days!

It's been sleeeeplessss nights since monday!

To share, something really bad happened on tuesday! I lost my report which was due wednesday. It just disappeared from my lappie, gone! I was positive I saved the file! But it wasn't there, and I only realized at around 1-ish am. SO, you can imagine how bad that was and I went crazy! And I just had caffeine boost right before realizing that. So, with all the adrenaline I had in the body, I could not calm down at all. Desperate moment it was! Luckily, FRIENDS, God sent them to pull you through those moments! THANK YOU PEEPS! To make the story short, I worked through the night (with much efffforrrtssss) and the next morning (Joyce made me awesome bfast! :))and got it submitted in time! Really grateful!



Joyce's so called 咸蛋超人 ：）Thanks gal! It's been sweet and encouraging! Despite the big lips it has! HAHA!! XD



Ter-Heart-shaped stakes of pancakes from joyce!



And then, we spent the rest of the day in the library for case studies discussions. Tiring. Especially being sleepless the night before, but yes, despite it all, we had good food! Our two groupmates (one from Nigeria, one from Cyprus) decided to have chinese food for dinner. And we had lots of chinese takeaway! Too much. XD

Lots of food. Happy times! Our groupmates love the chinese food! And the food kept us going for the night!

And we spent the night in the library, working on the presentation and talking! Hahas. (as we waited for midnight to comne for the surprise we planned for davin! It's his 22nd!) It was a good surprise! And we had nice cakeeeeeyyy..

Happy birthday Davin!!! :)

Funny and he looks really fat! XD

And today, we had a full day of lab and seminar. And after seminar, discussion. After discussion, lab. After lab, we decided we need a break!!!! We went for grocerries and wanted to grab fish and chips (we were craving for cheap pub food) but forgot the fact that they only serve food during the day time and we ended up having good italian food! It was YUMMY! they never fail making me happy! After food, we ended up staying in the library till 3-ish am to finish off our work. Crazy, crazy uni life! but, Thank God we got it done now!

It was good fellowship! of laughters and happy times! and ITALIAN FOOD! XD

Sweets are aweesommee!Tiramisu & Profiteroles

And housemate, Kai Ling made us rojak! They are just HEAVENLY! aaa...*SMILING WITH SATISFACTION* It's one of the things I miss the most from home! and, I realized it's only months away now to be back home! : )

ROJAK!



And it's going to be busy weekend. I am working four days in a row. Aaaaaaaa... I deserve a good rest now! :) In the midst of the business, I am learning to be thankful for those little good things life brings! And of course, God has been blessing me with good food over the last few days! (you can see :P) :)