Of all sorts.

It was Mother's day last weekend! I was happy to see how mom is excited with the flowers we got her :) It's really glad how the technology is so advanced today that though I am in the UK I could make sure that the flowers reach her on time. Happy Mother's Day! it was good to ring the mothers and grandma that meant a lot to me on this day =)

So, I had my third paper yesterday! 75% done! Woohoo. 

Swollen eye lids, tear stained eyes with muscle cramps in the stomach. It sucked me dry. I was defeated the night before this paper. The battle was tough. Wrestled and struggled and still defeated in the end. There I was feeling all helpless in pain. I gave up. I gave in to the situation. It was overwhelming. Good few hours of tortures. Until finally His words comforted me and the spirit of peace finally won the battle in the midst of my wounds. I got up victorious. But I was exhausted from the whole battle. I slept like a baby afterwards. 

The mind is the battlefield of mine. 

The Lord is my refuge. To be in Him I know I am safe from lies from Satan, 

It's been 4 months since Esmond and I started this courtship today. Everyday has been a joy to be able to learn to be in this together. It has not been easy some of the times. With all sorts of challenges. But I thank God for this man, for he is so patient and kind with words although he is never too generous with his time and space. haha, But he's still a good man afterall.

A random post of all sorts really. 

To smile.

Exam's more than merely reading everything u cud for the coming paper. It's about surviving, and pulling myself through. When pain is exaggerating enough to put me bedridden, I know I am able in Him. 

Pain, the easiest way Satan gets hold of me. And it's a reason to smile when I defeat him, each and every time. 

To hear from Him.

God, these pain are real and they never leave me. But I know you are real and u never leave me too. 

I pray aloud normally when I spend time with Him and when this came out, I was touched myself. I know the holy spirit is working and God is telling me that, He is real and ever faithful. 

The pain reminds me everyday of His grace. I can't help but praise Him. 

I smiled and leap in joy =D

Out of a sudden, he came and tell me, thanks for being an understanding girl most of the time, it saves me a lot of time to quarrel. LOL! the main thing is I save his time eh? = =haha.. oh wells, it was sweet after all XD. 

Haha, and before that he came and tell me, u look good today. And I was like, um.. why so suddenly? Then he  teasingly went, nah.. it's Thursday, to practise complimenting. [refer to last post about what he's doing] = =

I know, that's him.. so not-romantically romantic. Haha. But the most amazing thing was, 2 mins before that 1st msg came through, I just told my housemate I am going to sleep when it's only 9:30pm cos I am having a really really bad headache. And when that message came, the pain miraculously went away instantly. I write this post because I know he never reads my blog so I am free to talk about him. XD but, the most ultimate purpose is that, God heals in His own ways. The pain was real and exaggerating and just before I could help myself with my painkillers, the most unexpected healing fell upon. 

He works in amazing ways. and.. I will continue to praise His name! =)

Regret?

Mr.man: U always said u wanted ur husband to be someone who loves God more than u. Have u ever regretted ur decision to start this courtship with me?

Me: Nope, because I know His will and thoughts are higher than mine.

Esmond is a believer for about 3 years now I think. I am glad to see him going to cell group every Wednesday and even leading cell group once or twice now. Seeing him setting sundays for church make me see how Holy Spirit works. And the whole surprising bit is that, none of his friends are going. So, I told him I am shocked and he said he is shocked as well. And the fact that he prays before every single meal touches me.  

Coming back from cell group last night, he was happily telling me what they were doing last night. Being given a timetable from the cell group leader, they are doing something together to bless people around for the coming weeks. For example setting mondays away to help people, no media attachments on saturdays and others. He was all excited with the whole idea, like a kid. I like how he always show me that faith like a kid.

He does tell me that there's a lack of intimacy between him and God. But, to see his willingness to grow closer encourages me a lot to do it together. It may not be as easy as it is, being all weak and sinful. Although I don't know how Holy Spirit is going to work among us to bring us nearer to God each and everyday but I am always convinced that if I were to seek His kingdom first, everything shall come afterwards. 

So, nope, I never regretted my decision. Although there's still a long journey to go for marriage, I know we would become the couple who loves God more than anyone by faith and grace. I am sure God would help us bless each other with our lives, of different backgrounds, lifestyles and mind sets. 

The fight goes on!

I had my second paper, chemistry, the paper I dislike the most really. To be honest, everyone thought the paper was really difficult and it was not very well done too. Well, I did my best and as the old saying goes, leave the rest to God. And, The fight shall go on!! Two more papers. I slept for good ten hours last night, you could imagine how tired I was from the exam yesterday. XD 

But the best thing about yesterday was this movie, the lady I watched last night with my housemates, Joyce and Davin. It was a really awesome piece of work starring Michelle Yeoh. Michelle Yeoh is one of the Malaysian actresses that is so well known that I knew her since I was a kid. And she even made it to Hollywood! And I would say this is a must-watch! It was definitely a true story based on this lady, Aung San Suu Khhi from Myanmar. And I shall not spoil the movie by telling you what happened. So, watch it! It's worth it. The courage and love in this movie is definitely touching. I am sure you would agree. 

Something remarkable, when mr.man looks at me and tell me, "喜欢你" [translation: Liking u] the other night. He definitely melted my heart and kept me going with the fight. I truly thank God for him. He is so good with words of affirmations, though only at unexpected times but not on expected time, XD but that's the special bit about  him. I know God is ever faithful and providing by looking at him. His smile never fail to cheer me up. :D 

Delighted

I received this today =) It's soo nice. I bid it from ebay for £1. hehe. There's a signature of the photographer on the corner and I actually got a note from him/her at the back of the photograph! Sweet. And guess wad, behind those cool cameras, there's actually a buzz lightyear lying on the top shelf. Aw.